Caught Up in My Emotions

Just thinking about...

My impending birth...we are five weeks away now and it'll be my first natural, home-birth and VBAC after three c-sections.

My Mom and Dad.

My alcoholic brother and his poor wife and children.

The blessing of all these children around me.

The goodness of God and His endless provision for my family.

My other brother, who called me for the first time in years and I found out he's not interested in trusting Jesus as Savior, but assures me he does believe in God, but not in the bible.

My poor husband at work with all the stress of taking care of seriously injured people.

My home schooling or lack there of.

How much I miss my only close family member, my sister.

My only Grandmother's health.

The beauty of my relatonship with my husband.

The freedom in Christ I feel since we left our church and all of its legalism.

All my friends and family who can't bare children.

My longing to encourage mothers everywhere...young mothers, single mothers, unsaved mothers, mothers everywhere who feel that what they do doesn't matter and unappreciated.

Not having a family that I can lean on and finding somewhere in the sadness that God is all that I need.

The bible coming alive to me more than ever.

Being in limbo concerning faithful attendance to an institutional church.

Falling in love with hospitality to families from all walks of life.

Making new friends who are passionate about Christ.

Trying to figure out a name for this baby girl...help?!

Overwhelmed by the clutter and dust that I try to battle daily.

My third brother, who can't wait to get high and stupid while he attempts to care for his three year old and hoping my nephew's mother will knock some sense into my brother.

Praying for God to perform miralces in my family He seems to do for other families.

Looking at my children and crying to God, "Why did you choose to bless me with these little souls?" I hope I don't mess them up.

Hoping my children will see their need for Jesus in their hearts and lives.

Wanting to be a better wife and falling so short, so often.

I'm just caught up in the emotion of all these thoughts swirling around in my brain...

It goes on and on...

Oh God, give me peace, knowing that you will work all things together for good for those who walk in Christ...